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Day 31 -# Eke

#Eke is one of the official tangle of Zentangle inc., which has a simple loop crossing another simple loop or lean on the back of it. The loops can be of the same size or different sizes. The loops can be inked or the surroundings can be inked to create variations.

It’s a great border tangle too and have used it so in one or two of my drawings. But today I wanted to keep the focus on #Eke and not as a border. Hence, tried different ways of presenting it but nothing came as close to my expectations or satisfaction.

Being the last day, may be I was not able to focus or took this tangle to be an easy one. Rather, not much creative juice is flowing. Then the basic thought occurred to me – keep it simple silly – KISS 😀

Just kissed my hand and started a diagonal take of the #Eke as passing through an #Eyelet and shaded it.

Simple ways are the best ways when we are stuck😉 isn’t it?

Today is the last day of inktobertangles 2021 and I have a great satisfaction that I really committed myself to it and finished it without missing a single day. Neither the tangle nor the blog post was skipped. 😅Hip hip Hurray!!!

It was a great experience and I have a lot to talk about it and also itching to draw the newly learnt tangles in different ways. Before all that, let me take a small break and refresh to restart ☺️

My sincere thanks 🙏 to all for the appreciation/ likes/ comments and subscriptions. I couldn’t reciprocate and really couldn’t find time to visit your blogs. Planning to do in the coming days. Thanks again and Cheers 🥂 Be happy and Be safe😍💐


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Happiness in learning

Day 30 – #Tabs

Tomas Padros, the creator of this tangle is a famous person in the art circle for his geometrical/ angular patterns. I am awed by his talent in deconstructing the patterns with simple strokes which when used in sequence create the most amazing forms. With a little shading, he does magic and takes them to another dimension.

Love recreating his tangles although haven’t spent enough time to explore his collection in depth. Undoubtedly an area kept for my future plans☺️

Another thing I have noticed while checking out his patterns is that the amount of variations he shows in using the patterns/ tangles. Absolute trigger for me to immediately wanting to try them, though I won’t succeed in my first attempt. 😇

#Tabs I had practiced earlier and it’s a simple tangle to produce with a lot of shapes. It creates an image as if the paper is cut in between the lines and folded out.

Created a string with a rectangle in the middle and drew different shaped #Tabs in the sorrounding areas in the square. Made black and white #Eye-wa in the centre part. At the end, it looked like a stadium with a centre stage and the tabs are like seats around!

Today is the penultimate day of inktobertangles 2021. Thirty days passed since my first post on this amazing journey. Full of gratitude and happiness for all the learnings and all the appreciation 🙏❤️


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Life tree

Day 29 – # Tree leaf

A variety of simple leaves starting from a flat branch is what makes the #Tree leaf tangle.

A simple and most useful tangle. Can be used as borders or fillers or part of a flower tangle, so many variations possible.

The leaves are drawn facing opposite sides from the two parallel but broken pieces of branches. Used that idea on a circle and drew two consequent circles and leaves with one group facing inner side and another outer side.

Continued with the different leaf patterns around the circle and bordered them with wavy lines. Couldn’t resist using green though not on the leaves 😁

The final output looks like a stamp to me. 😇Hope you all appreciate this simple tangle and my take on it!

#Tree leaf

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Day 27 – #Trelina

A flower, a star or a monster – 😁I felt all these looking at this tangle by Eni Oken CZT, a great artist.

Though it looked a difficult tangle initially, (first time, I am drawing it) after a little practice, I loved it for its fluidity. The shading, where I struggle sometimes, is also a simple idea to grasp. Shading makes it come alive with an elegance to appreciate.

Eni Oken is a favorite artist to whom I have been introduced through zentangle and the way she presents her tiles are simply superb. ( Check her website @

Couple of days back, I heard about the app called ‘Art Raffle by Eni Oken’ and downloaded it on my phone. It is a treasure trove for all Zentangle lovers and a go to place for all the tangles (more than 400 and counting). Thankful to her for creating it🙏

Today I am presenting #Trelina in two backgrounds, one light and another dark. Hope both are likeable as I enjoyed doing both of them🥰

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Day 26 – #Dex

Zentangle’s tangle #Dex is deconstructed from the windows of a Manhattan building.

The step outs start with a grid of squares which are my favourites. This tangle transforms with shading to give a 3D view.

As I like grid tangles, I love the classic black and white tiles as well. So the idea today is to use my white gelly roll on a black surface. Hence the day’s tangle #Dex became my string and the centre black square became the background to draw in white.

Drew #Dex again and again in the two triangles and shaded them. The final outcome satisfied me. How about you?☺️


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Life is Simple

Day 24 – #Zigoli

I have used this tangle though was not aware of it name. I thought it is a variation of #Tripoli which is used widely. Actually #Zigoli got it’s name from #Tripoli for its similarity. The zig zag lines drawn as a part of the tangle is the other reason behind #Zigoli name.

A simple triangle with three sides of petal shapes with different shading is how this tangle is being approached. I wanted to keep to the basic and make it a simple one, today.

#Eye let is tangle I was keep thing for the last few days and since #Zigoli is drawn as a ribbon mostly, I combined both in a square.

A week more of inktober and after that should practice the learnings. Also should continue the practice of writing everyday. Hopes are the fuels for moving ahead in life 😇☺️


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Day 22 – # Paradisum

A new to me tangle. Very beautiful and different type of flower tangle. Had difficulty initially to get the curves and proportions right. But as we know there is nothing called ‘imperfect’ in zentangle☺️

I realised during my practice that when I draw two #Paradisum next to each other, the end hooks can join together and make a heart shape ❤️ So that’s what I wanted to create today!

Inside the circle drew four #Paradisum and connected them to create four heart shapes. Used Pink and orange colours alternately and since there are so many lines in the drawing, left the heart shapes without filling.

With the colors in the background the shading is not much effective but this tangle gives a 3D effect with shading very nicely. Hope at least a part of it is seen in my drawing. 😊

The count down starts and nine more days of #Inktober2021!


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Day 21 – #Oof

#Oof is the abbreviation for Out Of Focus 😀This tangle was deconstructed based on the view Rick ( had while looking at a window grill without his glasses on – so Out of focus!

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I named this post as Kolam because that’s what I had related this tangle with. Kolam represents in Tamil the designs or patterns drawn on the floor with rice powder using dots and lines. In other parts of India they call it Rangoli as well though Rangoli is a more coloured version of Kolam☺️

I was always mesmerized by the different Kolams I have seen while growing up. It needs a great skill to drop the powder in between the thumb and index finger in a controlled fashion to make the designs come alive. Any Kolam I see anywhere, I copy them in my notebooks. Though I had not mastered the drawing of Kolams on the floor with white powder, I was adept in reproducing them on paper.

My interest in Kolams are the basis for the attraction towards Zentangle art. Drawing human forms or nature hadn’t interested me much. But these patterns or tangles are always intriguing and reconstructing them based on the step outs is such a simple pleasure to me.

Enjoyed creating a string of #Oof and drawing more of the same inside. Used #Onomato on the four sides.

Glad to place my favorite hobby Kolam and my connection with it on record. Will share a post on my Kolam collections over the years, in near future☺️

Though late, somehow posted before the EOD !


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Sand & Waves

Day 20 – #Oysteroid

Jody Genovese CZT, the creator of this tangle said “The name for this tangle came from one of my Mosaic app friends saying this looked like oyster shells. I thought it looked like asteroids. As it happens the superfamily name for oysters is ostreoidea which sort of sounds like asteroids so I made up my own Zentangle word oysteroids” 😄

What an interesting tidbit to remember the tangle! 😄

For me, they looked like broken glass pieces stuck in the sand and reflecting light. This thought process led me to draw #seawaves and #Bella along with #Oysteroids in a beach like theme. 😊

This tangle will be an addition to my favorite list and I can use it as a filler tangle too. Loved using my Sakura black 01 for drawing the whole picture. Overall a great feeling and hope it resonates with you all😍


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Day 19 – #Oopsmi

The moment I saw this tangle, peacock feathers only came to my mind. I couldn’t find the reason why it’s called #Oopsmi. I will update as soon as I come to know it.

The step outs have three circles which I have coloured as in peacock feather with blue, green and yellow. my initial wish was to draw them around a peacock body. But today was not the day to plan and execute it😇 a project shelved for the future.


Thanks for all your appreciation and likes.🙏 Learning continues and makes life interesting☺️

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Day 17- #Ecstatic

Named this post with the tangle name itself 😊It was a tanglelation on the tangle #static by Zentangle inc.

It looks like a lightning ⚡️ to me with more layers joined together. Hence, thickened the first zigzag line and drew more thin lines around it. Black in golden background will enhance the lines was my idea 💡

#Caviar is an interesting tangle with it’s beautiful circle and inking. Always love to use it. Here, since I was not sure what other tangle to combine #Ecstatic with, so I took the safe bet with #Caviar. 😅

More than a fortnight passed after I took this journey and it is still going strong. I am happy about it and feel good about the consistency too. Recently, I have come to the understanding that routine, though boring, sometimes gives comfort too☺️ What do you all think?


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Day 16 – #Moonesque

A simple grid type tangle – a circle inside a square is being divided into four quarters and made beautiful by decorating each parts.

The grids can be drawn from different angles and the circles drawn accordingly pieced together to give a different view/perspective.

I had divided the square diagonally and created my rectangles for the #moonesque. Followed the simple way of filling them with lines and petals to see the shapes emerging. By inking the grids crisscrossing the square and shading, tried to create the illusion that the tangles are lying below a grilled window 🪟

I love grid tangles as I mentioned earlier and this new one joined in my list now😀

Have a great Sunday and I will come with the next tangle in the list!


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Day 15- #ING

An amazing and inspiring tangle. A Zig zag line and a few strokes creating triangles along the line….voila, a stunning tower like structure with multiple options to embellish!

I have used this tangle before and had fun with it. It can be drawn alone with shading or the triangles can be used as a string / reticula / fragment.

Today, I wanted to make a different tangelation of #Ing and came across the YouTube video by Kelly Barone and liked the way this tangle is used in a circle forming a star (#Star-ING). I followed her method and made #ING in two circles and connected with two #ING towers on the sides. The centre circle invited me to do a zengem🥰

Zengems are a craze and I have tried my hands before but not with much success 😑 But in this tile, I had 95% satisfaction and expect the same feelings from you also!☺️ Thanks so much for all the likes and comments 🙏

WishING an inspirING, relaxING and rejuvenatING weekend to all of you 🌹😇


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Circle of life

Day 13 – #Spynes

I was a bit scared of attempting this tangle as it looked a bit complicated for me to get the proportions right and make the spikes neatly arranged on the spiral.

Thanks to YouTube teachers who make things easy for us, I learnt the simple way to draw this tangle. As per the oft repeated phrase, one step or one stroke at a time, I conquered the #Spynes

This tangle required a big space in the tile and being my first time attempting it, I had decided to focus only on it and in whatever space available after that, I thought of drawing some other tangle. The triangle spaces on four corners in my mind best suited for the tangle #Paradox, which I love.

Blue and black combinations give a classic look for which I went for with simple shading. I am happy that it turned out the way I wanted it to be.

There are ups and downs in life – spikes and valleys – but nothing stops it. Life goes on reminding us to continue our journey! Be focussed on the journey and let other things go😊


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Flower power

Day 12- # Yumemi

A wonderfully beautiful tangle to draw with less effort.

Shie Naritomi had given the step outs for this lovely cherry blossom, Yumemi like tangle so nicely. In the video where she shows how to draw the #Yumemi tangle, though I didn’t get a word what she was saying, her intermittent laughter was very contagious😁

This flower tangle looks well when drawn in clusters and that’s what I have decided to do. Very mild colouring adds to the allure and so I have used some water color pencils after drawing the basic shapes.

I really enjoyed drawing this tangle although it took more time to finish it. Definitely a favourite tangle which I want to practice more and keep using in my drawings.

If you are passionate about something, please go ahead and keep doing it. The outcome, need not to be perfect or profitable but to be satisfying to your soul. Enjoy your passion!


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Fish or Flower!

Day 10 – Hirari by Midori Furuhashi CZT

While experimenting with the fluttering petals in some flower tangles, she created this ‘Hirari’ which is the image of overturned petals in Japanese.

Such a simple tangle and can be drawn individually, in clusters or as a border, giving a lot of options to the tangler!😉

I had a pre-prepared sheet and started drawing Hirari’s in the corners and in the centre, following the step outs and doing my variations. When I decided to shade, I felt the centre ‘Hirari’s’ looked more like four fishes and in the blue background they seemed to me as if they were swimming around. 🐟🐟🐟🐟

You may see the turned over petals and/or the fishes – solely depending on your angle of vision 😊. Whatever you see, hope you like the #Hirari!

Tomorrow is another day for another great tangle. 🙏


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Day 9 – Xac

A little late to finish the tangle of the day. But it is a tangle to cherish and one to keep going to in the future as well.

The creator, Susan Yeo CZT, named it after her son Isaac as ‘XAC’. The simple step outs leaves everything else to your own imagination and provides a freedom to experiment.

As mentioned before, there are no mistakes and every stroke gives you an opportunity to create a unique piece. With this in mind when approached with this tangle, I was very clear of producing the simple basic ones with some vines and leaves.

The final product is here for your eyes and I sincerely hope you all like it.

Another day… another tangle and the journey continues with my entanglement with this art☺️!


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To be worldly…

Day 8 – #Zenith

Zenith is the 150th of ‘’s’ official tangles. It’s a very lovely tangle with curves, lines and orbs combined. There are a wide variety of variations possible with each one resulting in an eye pleasing piece.

This is the tangle which challenged me when I tried it the first time. Once I understood the different steps, it’s such an easy tangle which I could never forget. Glad to have this as part of this years inktober tangle list and enjoyed drawing it.

Looking forward to the next tangle in the list and the learning coming with it☺️. Be safe! Be happy!


Line & curve

Day 6 – #Brrst

This is a grid tangle and can be repeated over to get a beautiful pattern. The basic pattern can be used as a fragment / shape and other tangles can be drawn inside it. These kind of tangles are my preferred type as they just take shape without a need to put much effort. If you follow the step outs and at the end voila! a beautiful tangle.☺️

The creator Kelly Barone CZT, was crossing a street when she noticed this pattern on a Church window. Since she was focusing on the pattern and how to get the step-outs, the street name was registered only as something starting with Br… in her mind. Hence she named this tangle as Brrst. 👌Interesting, isn’t it? 😀

I went for a simple zentangle tile design and drew a single #Brrst on a grid. Border is #doodah which is a great and versatile tangle.

Thanks for being with me in this journey which is proving to be an amazing learning experience overall. 🙏



Being in bliss🥰

Day 5 – ‘Ayame’

What a beautiful tangle and how many ways you can draw it! Mesmerized by this tangle and it definitely took a special position in my favorite list, already☺️

#Ayame is the tangle created accidentally by the Japanese CZT (Certified Zentangle Teacher) Emiko Kaneko, whose tiles are always a great inspiration to me. As the tangle looks like an Iris flower, the Japanese equivalent ‘Ayame’ name was given to it. She drew this last year, in the middle of the pandemic and shared that Ayame in flower language means ‘hope, faith, friendship and wisdom’ which we all need in these testing times. 🙏

I drew it on a watercolor background and tried different variations. Other vine tangles you see are # zinger and # fescue.

Today’s beautiful tangle lifted my bliss a notch and I’m excited for tomorrow’s tangle and another story associated with it.

Life is beautiful and blissful😀❤️spread the joy around!



Inktober 2021

Day 2 – #Naaki Most of the tangles are named by the creators, based on their mood, emotions, memories, etc. Apart from their resemblance to nature/shape. This tangle got its name as the author (Nadine Roller CZT) was eating a Kiwi (It is called NAAKI because NA dine A te KI wi)😁

It is also a new tangle which I tried for the first time, for inktober. (I like tangles which have straight lines than the ones with curved lines 😌). Though it looks straightforward, to get the correct and equal portions so that the final outcome is as specified, is not so easy😇. A few practices helped me to grasp it and deduce the versatility of the tangle.

Being the first time, I stuck to the basics and drew the tangle as instructed by the creator, and presented it with tangles called #chemystery and #tipple. It was totally Zen for me🧘🏻‍♀️

Thanks so much for all your comments and likes yesterday. If you like today’s creation, please press the star and send me your comments as well. See you tomorrow with the next prompt tangle. Be safe and happy 🌹



My Inktober Journey

My tryst with Zentangle started in 2017 as I was intrigued by its simplicity on top of my strong conviction that I can’t draw anything. ☺️But I love to draw and was very interested in learning it too.

Zentangle gives the freedom to people like me who have doubts about their ability to draw shapes. 😇

‘There are no mistakes’ is repeated at every instance boosting your self confidence. The uniqueness and possibility of a multitude of variations of the tangle as per your vision, still being beautiful to the eyes, allows you to embrace it wholeheartedly. That’s what happened to me and there is no turning back after that.

Two paths opened up to me once I started my journey with Zentangle. On one hand, I have so many things to learn, so many tangles and techniques to practice while on the other hand I can have a list of favorite tangles and strings, fine tuning them to my heart’s content.

For 11 months, I mix both of these ways to soak myself in the joy they bring, not only to me but also to the people around me.

Every October for the last 3 years, I look forward to the prompts posted for #inktober and focus only on those chosen tangles. Some of them find a place in my favorite list and become ‘go-to tangles’.

For the next 31 days, I’m planning to post my ‘tangle of the day’ and a small write up about my experience in drawing them. #inktobertangles2021

October 1 -#LUNARFLUX. It’s a new tangle for me although ‘#Flux’ is one of my favorite tangles. I drew it in a bluish green background as if they were floating on water, with water droplets and another tangle called #Msst. If you like it, drop a comment, please 😊🙏


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2020 – Credit or debit or balanced?

In life we win some, lose some.Is 2020 a total loss or did we gain anything? Is 2020 one of those occasional turbulences a ship faces or a titanic iceberg to sink it? Mind turns analytical as we reach the end of this unforgettable year.

As all of us have discussed in every occasion, the new virus had taken us by surprise as none or most of us didn’t expect this huge effect and for this long too. The expected end to this pandemic had played and still playing peekaboo with us (As I am writing this, a new Corona virus strain is identified and people are infected with it)

I believe in the balance of our life. Everyone has positive aspects and negative aspects in life and vary in their approach to them. The day starts with something to look forward to irrespective of whether it is good or bad. The day ends with balancing the columns, credit or debit. In between, we live adding or subtracting through our experiences. In 2020, it looked like a huge minus even as we neared the midpoint and still not seeing the light or the end of tunnel. However, we kept the hope alive and started letting out our held breaths and found ways to bring the normalcy as much as possible in our lives.

People went out with precautions and those stayed home learnt to not criticise those who went out for their living. There were precious lives lost and measures taken to contain the mortality rate. Governments focussed on reviving the industries and took steps to boost the economy with opposition parties muted support. Elections were conducted and leaders emerged victorious bringing cheer to the followers. Sports played with limited spectators or without making use of the digital platforms with the same amount of enthusiasm. Education took a new avatar online and kept its knowledge enabling objective to the extent possible as embraced by the student and teaching community.

Life goes on and as long as life goes on things will fall in place. Toughest days were managed with the support and understanding from family and friends. This year showed us the value of the people in our lives. The need for human touch and belongingness is felt deeply more than the need for materials we accumulated over years. Though we traveled less, we saw the beauty of the relationships and the nooks and corners of our surroundings. The mask hid the fear from our faces and gave an uniformity to the good and bad, the beautiful and ugly. The importance of health and healthy food is understood by many. (Check out

Personally, it was a memorable and a well lived year. Could devote a lot of time to my zentangle art and enjoyed every bit of it. Inktober 2020 helped to hone the skill and I emerged confident. Reading though took a bit back seat, relaxed reading before bed was a luxury possible because of the unhurried mornings. Netflix and Prime became a part of routine and the family time spent watching content together was nothing to compare with or can’t be traded for anything else. Exercising and relishing the home cooked food became a norm and the effect is seen clearly. I have to mention here that the food waste was drastically reduced or nil as every morsel is given its due attention.

I can keep going on as I have decided to focus on the positives after my initial panic and became grateful for every day. With the hope for vaccination and riding over this pandemic is nearing, appreciating all the good things in life and being helpful to others as much as possible became my only mottos in life. Because worrying or complaining won’t help in anyway or anyone. Rather than thinking in win or lose terms, finding balance is what I look for and expect you all to seek it out too! Keep me posted on your experience of 2020 😉

Wishing you all a wonderful, hopeful and joyful New Year 2021 ❤

“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops at all.” – Emily Dickinson

HOPE IN 2021:)


Corona, Me and life

Changes are painful; Changes are unwelcome; Changes not to be forced; I will change when I want to change; I bend the rules to suit my requirements…….

I am on top of the order; everything exists around me. I want; I prefer; I do irrespective of the effect on other beings…..

No more, COVID-19 is speaking, you better listen!

As I told in my previous post (What changed?), a lot changed in my life too, owing to this minuscule, a teeny tiny virus!!!!

Let me share the stages in which I have gone through or going through this new normal, for the past 150 days, approximately.


World war related fictions intrigued me as I cannot imagine enough the hard life of ordinary folks during wars, when they lived in constant fear and uncertainty. I read them extensively to assure me that that phase is over and world will never ever face those difficult times again. So when the news about this virus and its effect on human beings were started circulating, the initial reaction was to just ignore and dismiss the whole thing. But eventually the disease knocked the doors of our homes and talks of lockdown and possibility of the end of the world was projected, my adventurous antenna shot up. I rolled up my sleeves to face this uncertainty by planning ahead for our essentials, stocking up and realigning priorities. Protecting the family was the foremost thought and every contingency was being run in my overworking brain (which is always ready to catch up on anything to over think 😛

It was exciting, to be frank, at least initially, as it was something we haven’t experienced before. Previously, everything was within our reach, if you had the means to get it. Now, nothing is certain or assured even if you are wealthy or a celebrity, and that challenged every cell of my body.

Ordinary routine chores like cooking and cleaning the household were given an adventurous streak. Activities like clapping, lighting lamps and video calls were also keeping up the momentum of thrill as if we are part of some unknown ride. Each day was to be relished to the second.

Fear and Anxiety:

After a few weeks, the strain of being on constant vigil and guard started showing. It was impractical to plan everything and try and lead a normal life while nothing is normal. The news of the spread of the virus and the lack of facilities such as – hospital staff /beds/medication – added to the stress. The fact that the virus affects everyone and once infected you are isolated and in the hands of someone else, brought chills in the spine.

Though the lower percentages of infection and mortality in the country were doled out by everyone to calm the nerves, there was an underlying fear of the uncontrollable feature. Every sneeze and cough scared the mind and the onset of monsoon ensured that you either get up with a symptom or go to bed with one. Every remedy on earth to suppress the cold is followed and discussed to no end. Gone are the peaceful days when if you have a cold or fever you just cuddled and enjoyed the rest and attention. The anxiety and longing for those days started growing exponentially as being cooped up at home is not what we are accustomed to.

Calm and Clear:

If there is a high tide, a low tide should come next. The stage of acceptance had reached in the coming weeks, as it was well known by now that there is no quick fix for this virus. It is not going away on any particular day and may mutate and stay here forever.

Only way forward is to take charge of those factors which are in our control, like wearing a mask, keeping a social distance from outsiders, washing hands, sanitizing vegetables, groceries & anything touched by others, avoiding crowds, etc. Improving the immunity and fitness are given a priority at home always. Eating proper and healthy food in time, exercising, sleeping well and, in time, being positive and spreading happiness, helping the needy and underprivileged are some of the other parts of our life which we have in our rein in to lead a contented life.

Once all these are understood and practiced with clarity, the new normal became our routine.


All these stages are not clearly demarcated; often overlapped or dominated or subdued even in a part of the same day. As any other ordinary soul in this planet, I too go through these phases and I am looking forward to the days of carefree living. At the same time, all the learnings of these recent times are not going to be thrown away. Respect for our nature, family members, dignity of the household chores, value of our time, good health and especially the food and above all not taking anything for granted, are going to remain with me forever.

Surely, whatever I have recounted are not my lone experiences and may have touched a nerve in some of you or atleast felt something you could relate with. Please share your views and comments.

My next post, which I hope is in the near future 😉

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What changed?

A new decade dawned with a lot of hope as it always does with anything new arriving. A new day, a new book, a new person, a new place, all bring out a great excitement. The looking forward to the experience of the new something and the surprise element in not knowing what’s in store, make the waiting for the arrival of ‘New’ worthwhile. There will always be the secret hope to get the expected rather than the unexpected.

Year 2020 started with ignorance for many and it was bliss for sometime. And the knowledge was fed through media which was easy to avoid or ignore, again for sometime, keeping our usual, as normal. There was some confidence that the ‘pandemic’ lies far away from us and ‘no way’ we are part of ‘this new plan with a twist’

Then, the reality and the inescapability held our collar and made us take notice.

Life changed, a new normal took over. Nothing escaped or was ignored. Focus shifted from macro to micro. Wants trimmed for essential needs. Extra frills cut and folded for future. Stocks taken to survive the crisis.

Still, the end was seen very close. Something will be done to restore normalcy. Things cannot be so uncontrollable, in this new millennium and space age. We are super humans having harnessed the power of all the elements for our advantage. The hope stood strong on the pillars of ultimate superiority of the Homo sapiens. Alas! It is not to be so!

Weeks passed with the germ traveling widely with the globetrotting men and women. A new order arrived to show the weakness in the superior race. No latest weapon could protect the new unseen enemy. The giant power of the small organism and no shield against it to protect our lives, shocked the world. Panic struck; anxiety grew; uncertainty took hold as no one knew when this will end or what’s the cure.

While science finds ways to fight and kill the tiny being wreaking havoc across continents, we are asked to be unsocial by keeping distance from each other. Everyone sent home to shut the door on the virus. Not to give a path for its travel, we are asked to wash hands on it. While the air purifying itself from this killer, we went hiding behind a mask, biding our time.

“Stay home, stay safe” became our chanting!

While we stayed at home, our priorities changed, our lifestyle changed, our outlook changed, we changed, our universe changed…….hopefully for the better!

What changed in my life….in the next post.

We're not going back to normal | MIT Technology Review

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Love Facets

“Don’t take that carrot, I just said they are looking fresh, we had carrots yesterday” words spoken in a strict tone made me look up to find out the speaker and the spoken to. But pressed for time to rush home and begin the routine, I just focussed on the vegetables at hand.

“Look at these mangoes, they have ripen perfectly without any blemish” Words and the female voice drew my attention again and this time I couldn’t avoid looking. The man started to pick mangoes and the harsh voice admonished him, “I just said they are better than what we bought , didn’t tell you to take them. We need only potatoes, onions and tomatoes. Choose the onions which are smaller in size, they are the best and half a kilo tomatoes are enough. And put all of them in one basket, don’t go and search for another basket” Words fell out of her mouth in succession without care and in the severe order.

Being left to do my shopping on my own from the first year of marriage, I always looked longingly at the couples doing shopping together. Here the elderly couple with the reversal role of husband selecting the vegetables with wife just giving the advice was new and amusing to me. After a few seconds looking for a retaliation from the man and not seeing even a flutter of eyelids, I cursed my manners and averted the gaze. Quickly buying the vegetables I left from there.

Two days later, I was in our neighbourhood medical shop to buy a ear drop. Hearing the same voice giving instructions, noticed the couple again.”Just get the tablets for three days, don’t buy whatever is written by doctor. How many times I have to tell you this? Nothing will happen if one time you don’t take them”, intoned the voice.

As if it is a regular occurrence, the medical shop personnel just concentrated on their work and I was the only other customer. Once again I searched the man’s face for an angry response which is what I would have got if I have behaved liked that old lady., but in vain. No change in the expression and he just paid for the medicines as told by the shop guy and left with his wife.

Both their faces with the opposite expressions keep coming to my mind although I haven’t seen them after that incident in the pharmacy. A week later, on a Sunday after my walk I went to my usual place in the garden and found the uncle sitting alone in the adjacent bench. As my regular routine I started doing the stretches while being aware of his presence nearby and once finished sat to do Pranayama.

“Hi”, heard the voice before I closed my eyes and turned to look at him who was giving me the best smile he can conjure. The overt personality of mine took over and with full warmth I paid attention which always relaxed the other person and helped them to open up to me. The following conversation  ensued between us. 

He understood that I was curious to know about them and how unorthodox it looks the way his wife speaks to him in public. I apologised for showing my emotions so plainly and how it is not just inquisitiveness that wanted me to know about them but also to help in anyway possible. He accepted my views with the understanding that will come only with the experience how to separate the chaff from the grains over the years.

“She was not like this, he began, “she used to be the most calm and cool headed against my tensed nature, in the years after our marriage. I will just earn the money and leave everything to her as I have understood the ability of her in managing things with a more organised and unflustered way. ” As he spoke, he went into a trance reliving the moments of the past.

” We had the perfect life as life can be with each one understanding our specific roles and not trying to step into others shoes unnecessarily. We have two children, a boy and a girl, which added to the perfection and carried the sail smoothly till my retirement”.

He shook his head as he returned from his reverie forcefully as if the picture he was seeing started shaking and wanting it to clear.  The expressionless face returned with it set features and he looked at me in the eyes and said matter of factly ” A week after my retirement two years back, I had been diagnosed with a hole in the heart and some genetic conditions which doesn’t allow for any surgery. I can carry on as long as the medicines can help and ” he showed his hands towards the sky ” the boss decides”

I felt so sad with the affection I had developed for him in the few moments of meeting him. In my mind i was trying so many things to say about the advancement in medical world and how he can cure anything, etc but the words were blocked by my brain which knows very well that all these are empty words and will only be uttered for the sake of consoling.

So I just looked at him blankly but as if he got wind of my underlying confusion trying to link his ill health with the bitter behaviour of his wife, he spoke out “She couldn’t accept my health situation since she always had control of our lives and in her inner mind blames me for bringing this on our lives. Along with her love for me and this mental block to accept the helplessness, she started to over control tiny details and want to feel secured. So we go through these motions of our daily lives with she having the charge and I follow her orders. This is a way of showing her rebellion against my health condition and as I can sense her love behind this bitterness, I simply go along”

He tried to smile and suddenly getting a spark, he looked at me and said, it is like the new lovers who don’t care who is around when they are madly in love, we also don’t worry who watches us as we too are madly in love with each other!”

He was so happy with the newfound way of looking at their life, he started towards his home energetically to share it with his love of life.

I sat there for quite a long time thinking about the different dimensions of love!

Wear the love goggles to see the world differently! Not all love look the same! 

Love!!!!! Live!!! Laugh!!!!


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Food for thought!

Food is good! One of the greatest motivators from Pavlovian days 😉 For some it is the fuel for energising the body and for some it is the reason why the body is existing – eating to live and living to eat – we see it all. 😀  

Born in Kerala, brought up in Tamil Nadu, married in Mumbai and living in Bangalore helped me to taste the local foods of at least four states. I equally love the coconut based dishes of God’s own country, Idly, Dosa and Rasam of  Chennai, Pav bhaji, Pani puri, Chats and Dabeli of Mumbai and Akki roti, Gojju avalakki, Bisibele bath and Mysore pak of Karanataka. International influence brought pasta, pizza, noodles, burger and dark chocolates into our lives adding variety to satisfy the palette.

 Some foods linger in your thought for long and some best forgotten as soon you have eaten. In every tradition and culture, food plays the foremost part and every ritual is placed around it. In India, every festival has items to be prepared using the seasonal ingredients available during that time.

Though I like the concept of consuming the food, I tried to distance myself from the preparation part of it. Being a vegetarian and now turned Vegan, my experiments with food all happened by spending more time on looking at the ingredients carefully. Health conscious family added a list of staples to be part of our diet and millets and pulses became our regular intakes. Learnt to make a lot of millet based dishes and loved the lightness along with the great taste they provided.

 So I moved on from a person who can’t differentiate toor dal (pigeon pea) from moong dal ( green gram) to a confident chef sharing pictures of my preparations and recipes. Baking a cake once a while brought out another dimension to my new found passion and  helped to feed my family the vegan version without searching too much. 

 The options of eating out, take aways and home delivery are so tempting and widespread presently. We prefer enjoying our breakfast in a calm and serene ambience on a holiday and keep scouting for new places to experience.

A life journey comprises of eating good food, living healthy and laughing more! Let’s Just Do It! 🙂

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Spring back

It has been months since I wrote anything…its like being on life support and wanting to breath freely on my own…soon. The ‘soon’ was playing a peekaboo with me and I was being on a wild chase to catch it! Today I made a high jump dropping all the weights pulling me down and had an encounter with it. Here I am with my laptop and eager to dig and spill out the thoughts piled up on the inside for so long.

First and the foremost one, which was the reason why I could shed the things weighing me down and told me to ‘just do it’ immediately floated on top.

Last week I was traveling on the metro – the suburban rail transport which made the travel to different parts of the city hassle free – and I needed to drop the coin in the slot to get the exit gates swing open for me to leave the station. While entering to travel in the train, you carry the coin with u after placing it on the reader but to leave u should drop it to get the exit portal open. I hesitated a second while doing it as that moment brought forth a lot of thoughts.

If I drop the coin only the barrier will open nevertheless I want to hold on to the coin fearing the unknown, here the possibility that the gate may not open and I would have lost the coin which is the key to open it. Though in this scenario, it is possible to get the desired outcome with the interference of the security, I might have embarrassed myself in front of all if that happened. Although the action seemed to be a routine for many, it needed a lot of coordination between a lot of my muscles. The same instance I drop the coin with my right hand holding my bag on the left, my eyes should focus on the turnstile to swing open, and that moment my legs should move the body to go through the small passage quickly to come out on the other side without hindering the person behind me whose hand is already on the coin slot.  There is no time to reflect, still I am here hesitating. A second later I am out unscathed with the mind locked on to this thought. 😀

In life there are many a situations where we want to hold on to something doubting the outcome if we dropped them. But unless we lose them we won’t get to experience the new things waiting for us. And it’s not the mind alone which has to let them go, but our body also should cooperate to move further. If we do that early in life, it will be far simpler and easier to do. Life without those burdens weighing us down, will be lighter and guilt free to make the most of it with the short time we are given on this earth.

Think about it! See you soon – really soon this time – with another thought!

Live life lighter!!!!