Scorpio Soul Search


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Live Life Lightly :D

Ages since I wrote something and it was sitting like a heavy stone on my heart. Since it is my nature to do something only when I am absolutely comfortable and feel perfect, I was postponing the process of converting my thoughts into words.

I planned to write about:

  • the calm and totally relaxing summer break I had with my son
  • my unexpected comeback to teaching which is fulfilling
  • my observations on the changes happening in our son growing from a tween to a teen
  • how I went from the initial shock to calmly accepting the inevitable when our son also turned vegan one fine evening (hubby turned vegan a year back)
  • the two runs (6K and 4K) I participated recently and my takeaways from them
  • the joy of knowing that the effort of regular work out finally showing up
  • the knowledge or enlightenment(!!!) that understanding what is important in life and how to overlook/ignore certain things

All  are mixed up with emotions overflowing sometime and utterly blank other times. Hence this delay in posting anything till I sort out in my mind on what I want to write. But the days were full of so much learning and insight to get a hang of my inner feelings and matching them with my external being.

Ah, truly I am blessed to have started the journey of ‘being happy and contented’ irrespective of the situations I am in. Wait there, I haven’t drunk the ‘elixir’ or attained inordinate wisdom , it is still the same path with ups and downs, however, the time taken to move from the low point to high point keeps reducing as with the awareness.  I am slowly overcoming the guilty and fear I feel every time I am happy. Practicing to live life lightly by shedding the excess baggage one by one, thats it. 😉 😀

We are borne here to be happy, period. Celebrate life!!!!!! 🙂


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Realisation

I haven’t written anything for more than a fortnight which is a longtime after starting to blog. But I was not restless this time. I have accepted the impossibility due to my preoccupation with other things. Though I felt sad that I couldn’t allot time for my favourite thing in the world, I was not upset and moody about it, which usually happens and affects everything around me.☹️😖

“Stress is caused by being here and wanting to be there”

It was a great realisation that what is happening in the moment, i.e., NOW, is more important than what I missed or couldn’t do or could have done. (Yahoo!! ….that means I have matured enough to understand and accept realities / situations 😜)

Yes, last few days, I was preoccupied with things at the ground level and couldn’t allow my mind to fly away as I loved to do. 🦋🦋

Usually when I have things other than what I want to do, I will be restless and frustrated. I will imagine myself a donkey pulling a heavy cart load that too reluctantly and feel burdened with the mundane tasks. I was amazed that this time I had more control over my mind and didn’t allow it to throw tantrums (eh!!! I still do), shown a lot of patience and resilience, focussed on what has to be done rather than disillusioned, which felt really good.

Someone said no one is busy in the world; only the priorities differ. Being aware of the priorities at this point was the key for my keeping calm. I am no super human and within the available 24 hours, providing for eating and sleeping😋😴 (I surely can’t leave these out of my planning😊), only certain activities can be taken up and achieved. I have to clearly mention here that it solely depends on the ability of the person.

It is absolutely unnecessary to fret over things that are not done / cannot be done. Being in the present moment is the best gift we can give to ourselves rather than either constantly regretting about the past or planning for the future. Though heard this many a times before, the practical application, however unplanned, brought such a joy and revelation.

I am aware of my capabilities (if I am ignorant even now, then I need to see a doctor 🤒👨‍⚕️ ) and limitations to take up tasks accordingly. Based on the capacity of the container and the density of the material we decide the quantity that can be stored. Similarly every day comes with only limited hours and lets fill it to the brim with different deeds but without frustrating ourselves and a mindfullness.

“Today is the first day of the rest of my life”

is an excellent quote to begin everyday!

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Poles apart….BUT connected

“I CHOOSE YOU…EVERY DAY; NOT JUST THE GOOD ONES”

Marriage between two individuals is equated with the parallel rail tracks which stay apart but ensure smooth running of trains. Last few days I have been forced to think about this sacred institution (not so sacred anymore) and how it is viewed.

Its is more romantic to think that Marriage will happen between two people who have similar likings and once married would love to share everything with no secrets between them and they will be like two halves of a circle perfectly aligned. Of course, it’s not so always and in most successful marriages, it may be entirely opposite too.

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So when I followed my train of thoughts and observed our own lives and others in our surroundings, mostly found the halves being on the opposite poles:

  • When one lives happily in the present moment and can’t think of beyond today ; other is long term oriented with perfect plan for retirement and beyond
  • One spouse is totally emotional and sensitive being, in contrast to the wholly practical approached counterpart with strong convictions doesn’t get shaken by any storm.
  • A partner will be principled on hard work and strict discipline as the ways to success while the other half believe on smartness and luck factors
  • One is an early riser and goes to bed early while the other loves to sit late and considers that early prey gets caught by its predator
  • Routine things bores the female to the extent that she keeps two toothbrushes to alternate between; whereas the male never tires in keep doing the same pattern of activities……. for eons.
  • In reading books and whiling away she gets her relaxation while rigorous fitness regime gives him the everlasting high.
  • Going to new places and exploring new things provide the absolute pleasure for the woman; The man loves being at home after his work as change in schedule makes him restless
  •  While the masculine gender can recollect every name and number from childhood but forgets the wedding day, the feminine form can’t even remember own phone number but vividly recollects all moments of their life together
  • Her commercial sense of the world is abysmal ; his idea on the home front is dreadful
  • Satvic food is preferred by one and spicy food by the other

The list can go on similar to every married couple’s arguments sometime 😉

But what matters is the understanding they have of each other and the willingness to accept and appreciate other person’s choices and preferences.

Not identical tastes, rather love, respect and trust are equally important to stay together and save the marriage.

I chose to accept, appreciate, trust, respect and love ……….what about you?

 

 


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I’m Possible!

In the last three days I had three outings with friends and thoroughly enjoyed the whole time.

Two of them are with the same set of adults and their kids with whom I watched a movie and trekked a hill nearby our place. Both activities were planned with little time in advance and mostly through Whatsapp group discussion still achieved a greater participation with enthusiasm. As far as I am concerned, the whole experience was an absolute pleasure and filed under ‘my most memorable days’ folder.

if I think about the people (5 awesome ladies) with whom I shared these moments, we are not bestsies or thick friends who touch base always although we know each other for more than 5 years. A common friend connected all of us and we were happy to come together. We did some adjustments in our daily life to accommodate these outings, for the sake of kids and for ourselves. Took it in our stride when some of the things that happened were not as per our expectations or liking.  None of us complained too much or intruded in other’s privacy but ensured that all are included in the fun part without fail. Laughed out loud, encouraged each other to try new things, asked for each one’s review of the movie and exchanged ideas along with refreshments.

In all, it was a very cordial time spent together and each activity lasted four hours maximum on the day and it was not difficult to manage.

Therefore, when my friend called and said that because of this group it was possible and with some others it would not have been easy to pull through, I was astonished. She was saying that most if invited would like to know ‘who else are coming’ before even asking ‘where are we going or what are we doing’.  They have so much hesitation to even try or do some adjustments for a day to move with people from similar backgrounds. As I said it’s hardly four hours of interaction and in that also it was not necessary to be intimate with everyone all the time.  Even then it is unacceptable to some and they will be happy to throw away the fantastic experience of meeting people and having a wonderful time.

IMG_0718The insecurities, uncomfortable feelings, less confidence in self, ego clashes, fear of unknown, etc etc are quoted as reasons for this. But I wonder, where is the simplicity, humility, acceptance, joy of being together, sensitivity, considering others before self, goodness etc etc which will allow us to lower our guard sometime and enjoy life.

Surely I am not alone!

 


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Have a Good day!

Today morning I woke up reluctantly although I knew my schedule and deadlines to meet. While contemplating to prolong the sleep a while more, my thoughts drifted to the different things that motivate each one to leave sleep and embrace the morning every day.

The passion of doing things they like will motivate some to jump out of the bed and involve themselves whereas as basic as of having good food may rouse up so many.

For some it is what they do, get up and carry on the daily chores in a routine way till they hit the bed and again the same dreary day next. While for some it is a God given gift to wake up to a new morning.

It may be duties they have towards their children and family which pushes some out of their slumber while it is the eagerness to meet ‘the one’ today for a few.

Making money or making it big awakens people sometime and other times it is just the thought of having quietness before the humdrum of a busy day.

Fitness freaks keep their shoes next to the bed and hop into them as soon as the alarm rings whereas lazy ones waiting for someone to pour a bucketful of water on their head.

Smarties planned their schedule to the ‘T’ and nothing will stop them from achieving their goals leave alone a cosy bed on a chill morning.

For grandparents, it may be the day their grandkid is visiting, hence need an early rise to make special preparations while young parents haven’t slept at all.

Some kids have their fixed time slots for sleeping and getting up during exam time with their parents keeping prior slots to ensure they stick to them.

Most have different schedules for weekdays and weekends though that cannot be said for quite a few. The stirring up happens on earth for most of us with some come to life on air and a handful do in the space too.

Wherever you are and whenever you emerge from the sleep, whatever you look forward to or planned to accomplish today, be there and relish each moment.

Wishing a very Good day to you all!

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In Between

“Be Moderate in order to taste the joys of life in abundance” – Epicurus

Extremism in every form scares me.

‘R u with us or against us? Could not be answered in a clear cut way by all. I like to mumble and escape when confronted by two extremists pushing their agenda.

It’s not that I don’t have preferences. Certainly I do and exercise my likings whenever required.

I like reading more than watching sport and in reading I like mysteries and war stories compared to romance and drama. Will read political and local headlines in newspaper and skip business and sports sections completely!!!

I prefer comedies and thrillers when come to movies over action and tragic tales. In food I love spicy food in contrast to sweets or cakes.  Sober colours and cool cottons are picked out for my clothes and minimalism is practiced religiously when comes to make up and dressing up for occasions.

Walking and yoga are favoured for my fitness routine over gym or zumba. I incline towards praying quietly and searching my inner soul for answers relating to life and God and purposely avoid elaborate rituals. I have voted for one party and rejected another.

In all the above, I never shun the other totally or walked out on them. Accepted and agreed upon once in a while. Tasted or refused diplomatically citing some reasons. Read a chapter and tossed away. Gave company when invited to watch a match. Tolerated the violent or smooching films when thrown in my way. Participated in poojas or ceremonies to fulfil social obligations. Listened to both the campaigns.

So whenever I come across people who are very strong in their opinions and preferences I  freeze. When they refused to negotiate on their stand,  no word comes out of my throat. I will feel agitated inside sometimes when the agreement or disagreement comes staunchly without a slight consideration for the other side, especially when the parties are close in relationship. I feel so dejected when some choices are not even considered and rejected outrightly.

It may be said that respect comes for people who have sure footing rather than to those who are constantly in dilemmas or agree for everything. True, it is really difficult to deal with those ‘no-stand-of their-own’ people as they are incapable of taking decisions and will be riding on others back always.

Again, these are people of other extreme, whereas there are some sensitive beings who see good in everyone and appreciate it genuinely. There should be a middle point somewhere where all of us can co-exist and live happily ever  after. 😉

Are we not social animals and expected to live amicably by adjusting and compromising a bit to have peace and harmony?. If everyone feel that what they say or do is correct and stick to their guns, how are we supposed to move together to achieve the common good? Isn’t it learnt from history that infighting destroyed one’s own?

A positive and rewarding point I have identified in practicing moderation in different aspects of life is the ease with which we can correct ourselves whenever we made some mistakes. It also saves face and ego bruises are negligible when the opponent scores a clear goal. What do you say????? 🙂 🙂 🙂

Happy to be a moderate!

“Life is really simple; but we insist on making it complicated” – Confucius

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God, The punisher?

There are people who totally rubbish the idea of God and those who staunchly believe in the Omnipresent, Omnipotent God and will perform elaborate rituals daily.

I don’t fall in both the categories. I may be part of the ‘accept-GOD-is-there-but can’t-do-dictated-rites-in-a-ceremonious-way’ category.

I love the concept of God and wholeheartedly trust that there is a force beyond my understanding and imagination. I also like to give a name, face & figure as I like to remember HIM/HER and have faith in the unlimited power to set right anything. In the last phrase is what I strongly believe, HE/SHE can set right things by Generating / Protecting/Destroying as deemed fit but never agreed or come to terms with the ‘Punishing ‘part of GOD and our need to plead forgiveness or do ‘this/that’ to appease His/Her anger.

There is a WhatsApp message circulating with the concept that Dronacharya and Bheeshmacharya, the very good and honest people with integrity, were killed in the Mahabharata war because of their one act of injustice shown to Draupadi and Karna for his injustice to Abhimanyu in the war field. Their one single act of wrong doing, robbed them of all the effect of the goodness,  accumulated over their life time.

This message is what I feel created for upholding the age old idea of ‘Fear of God’ to make people to do things in the right way. Telling them to be disciplined, show justice to all in every situations although opposite may help them to gain, be honest, maintain integrity, etc etc etc, directly, our race never agreed or followed, hence the clause, ‘if you don’t’ introduced with the punishment that awaited them in case of non compliance.

The judgement day and Chitragupta’s record keeping are constantly reminded to keep the flock in the straight line, because of its tendency to go wayward as proved time and again. Since its difficult for me to accept anything blindly I always thought about this aspect and searched for an answer. It is my conclusion that there is a cause and effect but the results are seen on earth and within this lifetime. The supreme GOD is all merciful and is a not  a judge who is going to proclaim our sentence every time we err. HE knows that he made us with flaws and it is part of our mechanism to falter.

I am not talking about the people whose idea of living is being evil, trouble or ill treat everyone around them or grossly misbehave without any consideration and gain happiness only from these behaviour. I have no clue why they are or do like that and how they will be ‘set right’ by GOD either in this Janma or in the next.

The common mortals like me who search for happiness in their life and commit some sins either knowingly or unknowingly but regret it later cannot be punished severely for their one/two/three ….:) acts of injustice as mentioned in that message. As the act of injustice done is considered, the act of regret should also be taken for account. Am not saying good deeds will cancel the bad ones and balance the book but totally believe that the genuine feeling of regret has some influence on how a person is judged or treated, surely in God’s eyes!if-people-are-good-only-because-they-fear-punishment